Finding the words...



For so long now I have avoided all of you. sorry

With each pass of my computer, I felt that twinge.

I felt as though I owed y'all an explanation.

I do.

For years, many of you have been faithful followers, readers and friends.

You have become a huge part of my family.

If you're a blogger, you know how easy it is to share here.

I have never had a problem opening my home and heart to all of you.

But for the last couple of months..... life got real.

Not the real where I share my dirty floors or piles of laundry...

Real as in... I want to crawl under a rock and hide... real.

For those of you wondering..

My husband is my rock, none of us have cancer and my kids are not in jail...

so what's left?

I just can't go there right now but can I ask for a favor?

Can you please lift my little family up in prayer.

I know it's in our nature to feel as though we need to know the problem before we can ask God to fix it.

Trust me... He Knows.

I have fallen on my face and cried out to him in the darkness...He Knows.



I want with every ounce to sit and spill my heart to y'all.

To have you tell me it will be OK.

To assure me I'm not alone in this.

To love me unconditionally as I have failed to do so myself.

It's hard y'all.

It's so hard to visit my IG and blog friends and see "happy" when my heart is so full...

but I do.

I'm making myself breathe in your joy, your success, your inspiration...

For some of you, your faith!

You know who you are.

Your simple quotes and scriptures are my manna. Thank you.



Over these past weeks following Christmas, I pushed my paint and brushes to the side.

How can one paint...


 "Chin up buttercup"  

"Today I will choose Joy"

"Every little thing is gonna be OK"


when I feel like poop...?

And you know what?

I can't hide from it... it has been painted on my heart.

I love y'all...

xoxo Susie







62 comments:

  1. I've had you in my thoughts prayers already, and will continue to be. I don't need explanations. A prayer request is enough. Whatever you are going through, you are not alone.

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  2. Dear Susie, you are in my thoughts each day as I walk by the beautiful art you have made for my home. You will now be in my prayers. Sending you love from snowy Massachusetts, Cindy Riley

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    1. Hi Tessie!
      I tried to contact you but couldnt find a source. I just wanted to let you know how much your comment and prayers mean to me. Thanks again.. hugs

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  3. So sorry, Susie. I'll pray for you and your family. This is a quote I turn to for times when I feel discouraged:

    “Don't you quit. You keep walking, you keep trying, there is help and happiness ahead. Some blessings come soon. Some come late. Some don't come until heaven. But for those who embrace the gospel of Jesus Christ, they come. It will be alright in the end. Trust God and believe in Good Things to Come.”
    ― Jeffrey R. Holland

    Love, Susan

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  4. �� say no more, of course I'll pray!! God bless

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    1. Hi Kathy! I could not find a profile to contact you so I hope you find it here. Thank you so much for your prayers and sweet comment. Thank you! Hugs.. Susie

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  5. Susie, HE has you, baby. Just hang on. It'll be ok.

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  6. Praying....wish I could do more. Much love friend.

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  7. I'm so sorry for whatever it is that you are going through & I'll be praying for you. God will bring you through it -- He is faithful, but I know you already know that. Sending prayers & hugs your way. xoxo

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    1. Hi Clydia! I went over to your blog but for some reason, it would not load. I just wanted you to know how much I adore our friendship and thank you for your prayers. Hugs.. Susie

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  8. Praying for you and yours:)

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    1. Thank you Courtney! This mean so much..hugs, Susie

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  10. Oh, Darlin'! It breaks my heart to hear you're suffering. I can assure you I'll be praying for you and your family. Feel God's hand on your life and I pray He will give you some peace. I don't know what you're going through but I do know I've been at a point when I wondered where God was and why He had left me. He was there all the time but I just didn't feel His peace. Never met you, Susie, but I love you and know I really care.
    Blessings,
    Shelia

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  11. I am praying for you. God is good, all the time.

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    1. Yes He is!!! thank you.. hugs, Susie

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  12. Sending good thoughts your way-your blog is such an inspiration for me-love and peace-Claire

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    1. Hi Claire, Thank you so very much. Hugs, Susie

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  13. I'm normally a lurker. Pretty sure I've never commented here before, but I've been following for years and just couldn't not comment today. I'm so truly sorry that you are having a rough time. Whatever it is, God knows and cares and wants you to be OK and look to Him as your source of strength and comfort and encouragement. How awesome to think that the God of the universe loves us and desires to be with us! Gives me chills! :) I know you know these things, but I always feel like we need to hear the truth again when we're going through a tough time.
    Anyway, love and prayers coming to you from NJ!

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    1. Hi freind from NJ, good to hear from you :) Thank you so much for sending prayers and reading. They mean so much. Thanks again and stay warm up there! Hugs, Susie

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  14. Oh! Reading that squeezed my heart. Prayers out to you and ours right now. (hugs) Hang in... he has it all in control!

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    1. Thank you so much Gee Singh! Hugs, Susie

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  15. You got it Susie. Any time!

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  16. I will pray that the peace you've given others will fill your heart. Take care.

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  17. This one always helps me.

    Psalm 34:4 ESV

    I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.

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    1. Hi Deb... thank you for sharing this scripture. Hugs..

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  18. So sorry, Susie. This, too, shall pass. Prayers.

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  19. Keep well. Miss you and seeing your beautiful artwork. Think positive!

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    1. Thank you... I hope to be back into the swing of things. I really miss y'all too!

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  20. Footprints in the sand....it is then that I carried you. May you find some comfort in knowing that you and your family are in my prayers, and if I was there I would throw my arms around you and hug with all my might. Take care.

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  21. God bless you Susie. I have enjoyed reading your blog for a few years now. It's funny how I feel like I know you. Please know that I will be praying for you. You are not alone. He is with you always.

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    1. Hi Anne.. you just made my heart smile! Thank you for reading and your sweet prayers mean a lot. Thank you!Hugs, Susie

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  22. Susie, I too have followed you for years and always find love, beauty and comfort here. I am praying for you and your family and hope that whatever it is you hand it over to God and let him help. Easier said than done...

    Take care of yourself,

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  23. You are exactly where you are supposed to be...It may not make sense now or sometimes ever in this lifetime, but God has a plan for you and this is where you need to be- for the greater good. Prayers to you to have the strength to remember this and feel it in your soul on those days you think you just can't go on. We have all been there, or will be there someday. We know, and we know you will be okay...someday.

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    1. Thank you Joanne for the sweet words of encouragement. They mean so much. Hugs

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  24. During times like these, I'm so thankful to know that God already knew what would be happening. It doesn't take the pain away but it provides some comfort in knowing that. Prayers for all of you. May you be provided with the peace and comfort you need.

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  25. holding you close to my heart, feel the comfort and strength there...blessings.

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  26. Praying for you, God is good and will get you through this. Hugs from Conroe, Texas

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  27. Sending love and prayers for you. You are stronger than you think and will get through this.

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    1. Thank you Debbie for your words of encouragement, love and prayers. They all mean so much. Hugs

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  28. Sending prayers and hugs. Whatever trials you are experiencing, I pray they pass quickly.

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  29. Stand Strong Susie.. We all care about you...thanks for the update. Take care of yourself

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  30. There is a verse from an old hymn that has been my theme song the past few months: "Be not dismayed whate're betide, God will take care of you." Hope that encourages you as it has me.

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  31. Praying for you and your family. Remember to stay strong and true and he will carry you through.

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  32. I'm a previous customer and I'm so sorry for whatever pain your family is facing. Keep clinging to the Lord and remember He is good, even when we don't understand.

    "No good thing will he withhold..." Psalm 84:11

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  33. So sorry, Susie, and will add you to my prayer list. May His mercies shower you! Many of us have been there...you are not alone!

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  34. You're absolutely right...God knows, He's beside you and He is in control. You and your family will be in my prayers, Susie.

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  35. God, hold Susie and her family in your loving arms till the pain subsides , let your light shine upon them. Amen.

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  36. I am a faithful follower...not a great commenter. but I am Praying for you and your family. GOD KNOWS! Wrapping my arms around you from Pleasant Grove, AL

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  37. Sending up my little prayers to our big God on your behalf. For the past couple of years my extended family has went through things I thought only happened on TV and I have felt stretched in ways I could never have imagined. And God has held me through it all. And I know He is holding you now. God knows every detail and I pray He grants you strength and grace and peace as you walk this road.

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  38. Susie,

    It breaks my heart to hear you are going through this difficult time. May the good Lord fill your heart and soul with His peace and comfort. Kim

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  39. Susie- I read every post but don't comment often & I don't know if you remember me. I had a blog several years ago when my little boy, Michael, was battling a brain tumor. You were always there with kind words and sweet encouragement. I'm sorry you are going through a difficult time but will gladly keep you and your family in my thoughts & prayers. {hugs} JoAnne

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  40. My heart goes out to you. I am so sorry that you are suffering. Our Father in Heaven and his son Jesus Christ love each of us more than we can comprehend. I believe that when we struggle they shed tears for our heartaches. I am praying and hoping for better days to come your way. Please know that I love you too.

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  41. Sweetheart, we've all been there. You don't have to explain anything. God hears the groans of our spirit. You are loved and lifted up in prayers. When you're ready, return. Until then, give yourself permission to just be quiet and take care of you and the needs of your family. You're never alone :)

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  42. Praying for you and your family. Just take one day at a time and remember Philippians 4:13
    "You can do all things through Christ who strengthens you".

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  43. Susie, you owe us no explanation.......just know that I'm praying and lifting you up to our Lord, Jesus Christ. HE is always carrying you, especially in times of need. I always think of the story "Footprints In The Sand". I love love love that story......I turn to it often, especially in times of sorrow, hurt, or just questions........Much love to you, your precious family! God is watching over you with love, faith & hope! xoxoxo Sandy

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  44. You are so right that God knows the problem and he is fixing it now . God Bless you and my prayers are with you and your family
    Sincerely
    betsy

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  45. Susie....thinking of you and sending prayers...... Andrea in Illinois

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  46. Late reading, computer problems. So beautifully written. You are such a beautiful, talented women! God will see you thru this. Prayers sent.

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