Life gets messy.
It's ugly. It's painful. It's needed.
No matter how pretty ones life may appear,
you can bet your bum, there will be smudges.
Today I waddled in smudges...not pretty people.
Chores that have to be done.
Feelings of helplessness.
My youngest is suffering from what we think is reflux and needs to see a specialist on Friday.
Could y'all pray?
My "to do" boards that were supposed to help me better manage my time..
All of those things I expect in life
It's when my faith feels faint and I doubt.
Why must everything be so hard sometimes?
Every Wednesday I attend a class at church.
I surround myself in His word.
I breathe it in. I live it out.
Why then do I still suffer and doubt?
There is no doubt I believe.
I trust HIM and what He says is true.
It's my heart that I don't trust.
Hearts break and try to justify.
Hearts fail you...even your own at times.
I'm reminded today not to trust my human heart,
my tired body and mind.
It will fail me.
My heart is so good at making excuses...
Can you relate?
I love this..
I'm thankful for my human heart and my shaky knees.
I'm thankful for the Earth that sometimes crumbles under my feet.
For when I'm at my lowest...
He. Is. Near
I feel His love and my doubtful heart takes the backseat.
And tonight.. it's not my heart that I'm following.
If it were I would be lost!
Thank you for being here to allow my soul to vent.
Thank you for your prayers for Maddy.
It's nice to know I'm not traveling this journey alone.
Maybe one day our smudges will turn into a beautiful masterpiece ;)